I Only fear One thing...Love..::Kakashi::{ Part 49} Bad Idea. [lemon]

So I left off..with you running. Well as I said before you ran all night and even most of the next day. You didn't really get back to Konoha until around 6ish. Which wasn't the best time. You were sure you could keep the killing edge down to a minimum as long as you didn't think about anything that happened in the last week. You didn't go to see Tsunde or anything instead just went straight to Kakashi's house.



You were a little joyed to find that no one was in there. It would have been good to see Kakashi but you wanted to at least get in better shape then what you were in. Your hair looked like crap. Your body was completely drenched with sweat and you were incredibly exhausted. First thing you did of course was take a long relaxing bath. You even added some bubbles.


You didn't even touch your hair the entire time just let it hang there on your shoulders until you were ready to mess with it. You cleaned yourself though and didn't even notice the pain from your burning back because the killing edge was still high. It was like you were a walking chakra bomb just waiting to explode. Once out of the bathtub you looked at your hair. It was short that was for sure. Next thing you knew you were taking a kunai to your head and cutting away extra pieces that made it look tacky.




When you were finished you had to admit it didn't look half bad. You still missed your long hair and when you tried to put it up, you failed miserably. You finished fixing yourself up with a sigh and went out of the bathroom. You only spent an hour in there and time wasn't going to fly by very quickly if you didn't find something to do. You knew if you just sat around your killing edge would surely build because you would have nothing else to think about, but what was up with Zoki and also Sasuke. With that in mind you fixed yourself something to eat.


All you got was a microwavable dinner plate that had some rice and sesame chicken on it. You looked around Kakashi's kitchen but found he still didn't have any sake and you definitely needed to go shopping for some. You needed sake just in case of emergency's like this. So instead of wallowing in your anger you grabbed your dinner and plugged in a game. Turns out that would be the worst mistake you made all day. You didn't understand why, but today was just not your day to play video games. It seemed every race you played you lost every fighting game you lost. Mostly you were becoming a rage induced gamer which didn't do very well with your killing edge. When you lost this long race that was 10 long laps you threw the controller on the ground and got off the couch with clenched fists. It seemed your killing edge just wasn't going to let you go.

You only remembered being like this close a couple times and of course then you had sake in your cabinets to drown out your anger. You would just go out to a bar, but still if anything annoyed you like that game you would be in for some trouble. You went to the kitchen to get yourself a drink. You poured yourself some water and chugged it down. Right when you put the glass down and leaned forward with closed eyes the front door opened.


Shit… You immediately thought while you forced your killing edge down..far down. There was a pause in the door, after you heard Kakashi unzip his vest. "Hello Star." His voice held no emotion, but you could hear the surprise still. Of course that would be obvious since you just disappeared that night after Sasuke and you had that fight. "Kakashi." You greeted in the worst way imaginable. Your killing edge was pulsing horribly, you had to get out of the room. Without even glancing in Kakashi's direction you turned around quickly and started to head somewhere away from the kitchen and living room.


You didn't get far before someone was right there in front of you. You closed your eyes as the sudden shock multiplied the killing edges force against your small barrier you held it in.


"Kakashi. I'm not in a very good mood." You said opening your eyes to unleash some of the anger through your gaze. Kakashi's eyes were narrowed on you in a dangerous way. You knew he felt your rage but still he was not moving.

"What put you in such a horrible mood?" He didn't say it as a question and it didn't matter since you weren't going to answer him anyway.

"Kakashi..just let me through." You said with harshness in your voice.

"What if I don't feel obligated to." He said taking just one dangerous step closer so you could feel the heat of his body. Your faces were just inches apart now.

"Then I'll have to force you to move." You said showing the intensity of the threat through your eyes.

"Will you really?" He just had to question.


"Kakashi. I need to calm down." You answered back giving an almost sigh, but you were to pulsing to much to do so.


"I can help you." Your eyes narrowed slightly as you wondered what the hell he was talking about. You only figured out what it was the second he pulled down his mask. You tried to move back..to get away, but Kakashi grabbed you around the waist pulling you closer. The feeling of his lips on yours was frightening. There was probably only one other time you were this close to being out of control and it took all your will to stop yourself from wanting to do something very bad. Now you weren't sure if you had enough of that power. Before it was just the passion that made you want him, but now you had grown to like Kakashi so there was already that want. Now your need..desire for him was almost unbearable.

As the anger turned into passion you could start to feel it take over you completely. You tangled your fingers in his hair pulling him so his lips crushed against yours in a blissful kiss. With your lips parted you could taste the heady scent of him and it drove you mad. You needed to taste him..move your tongue against his, but you couldn't and didn't..you were able to hold off for that much. As the two of you just merely tasted each other without tongue you were able to pull away from him. The feeling inside of you wined greatly and you couldn't stay away long.

"I don't think that was a very good idea." You said before your lips had to meet his again.

"And why is that?" Kakashi asked pulling back to tilt his head another direction. You couldn't say it and decided to just show him. As soon as your mind was set you couldn't help it, your hands fell from around his neck to slide under his unzipped vest. You felt his muscular pecks and slowly yet thoroughly moved your hands down his chest touching each of his packs with delight. Then one of your hands lowered and you slid only one finger into the top of his pants. With just that one finger you pulled him closer so his manhood pressed against your body. He let out a small sound almost like a grunt. Now he knew how badly you wanted him.

"That is why." You answered back giving his bottom lip a tight squeeze with your lips.

"I have no objections." He said almost automatically.

"Of course you don't, your male." You lifted your hands back around his neck. It took so much control to not just take him right then..to just wrip off his clothes and do him right on the kitchen floor.

"Seeming how things are going you don't either." He said lightly pushing your head back after another kiss you gave him. The only thing you could do in response was growl. You couldn't deny that you wanted him, but that didn't necessarily mean you Had to have him. He only smirked a hot smirk in reply before kissing you again. You melted into the kiss again and Kakashi decided he wouldn't let the opportunity go to waste. He grabbed your thighs making you have to wrap your legs around his waist. You could feel his manliness pressing against your wanting area and you found the desire too much to handle. The passion came and you kissed him roughly with full tongue now as he carried the two of you into the room. Ohh man you were in trouble.

He carried you all the way into the bedroom still kissing but when he took you to the side of the bed and just leaned down making you land on the bed the two of you broke the kiss. You took that time as the perfect and took off his vest. He lowered his lips onto yours again and the two of you again began kissing passionately with full desire. This pent up anger over the trust issues with that mission team, not being able to stop Sasuke, Zoki for cutting your hair, kissing you, and even not being able to win on the video games. All of it just turned into passion and desire and want. Kakashi pulled away from the kiss though which made you want to wine, but he began kissing your jaw line and then slowly down your neck. The kisses were sweet and just the way you were feeling it caused you to moan a little as your breath quickened.

As Kakashi enjoyed making you moan, you were at least able to think a bit. Only one thought brought your eyes to one single color and you pushed away from Kakashi a bit. You might have been able to get through with kissing him..but going all the way.

"Kakashi..wait.." His lips lingered on your skin, but he sighed before pulling up. He brought his gaze up to yours and his eye was no longer emotionless or bored. It was filled with want and desire and a little of something else.

"I know you don't like trust, but I'm telling you the truth when I say..I'm in love with you." Looking into his eyes and hearing him say that to you caused your heart to leap out of beat. What was there to say you were lost of words..lost of thoughts. There was shock and disbelief written all over your face as the killing edge reacted quite harshly to his words. He leaned in close to your ear. "That's why I'm not only going to fuck you senseless. I'm going to make love to you."


A gasp left your lips while Kakashi gave your ear a nibble teasing you, and at the same time lifting your shirt up. You were just shocked beyond belief by what Kakashi said, but there was no doubt in your mind that what he said was true. All you could do was comply by helping him take off your shirt. Your killing edge wasn't going to let you off that easily even if you were surprised. It didn't matter if you were afraid to trust what he said the passion you were feeling made you want him more than anything those other feelings of shock could be dealt with later. As soon as your shirt was off Kakashi kissed you a hard kiss that sent your senses reeling and your heart jumping.

As your tongue's fought you fought with his shirt trying to get it off of him. He finally broke away to help you but after you were kissing savagely again. You let your hands wonder over his muscles feeling the way each of them felt like a brick under your fingers. You could feel his body against yours and it didn't bother you in the least that Kakashi had told you he loved you. You didn't care that you would be taking that one leap that was for passionate lovers. In that moment you were passionate lovers ready to have a full night of sex. Even though your killing edge was forcing you to go fast you slowed down just to make the kiss sweet so you could tease him in a way. He still had most of his gear on unlike you so you were going to have fun stripping him down.

First thing you worked on was his headband that was still around his sharingan eye. You pulled away from the kiss with both hands cupping his face. You started to trail the gentlest kisses up his cheek while slowly sliding the headband off of his head. Once it was off you threw it aside and gave his eye an affectionate small kiss. As soon as you pulled back Kakashi opened both eyes and that first site of the sharingan pinched your killing edge actually making you pull him closer to you as the passion rose. Kakashi didn't wait after that he again started a kiss that was deep and loving. As you pulled him closer you found yourself in a very uncomfortable position since you were hanging off the side of the bed. You pulled your arms away from him to help you crawl backward more onto the bed. Kakashi's lips never left yours so he followed you, moving with you the entire time. You finally stopped when you thought you were in the center of the bed and Kakashi was just hovering over you still kissing you. It seemed Kakashi couldn't wait that long because he started to pull your pants off and just threw them. Before he could start kissing you again you grabbed one of his hands.

Just yet another thing you had to get off. He still had his gloves on that only went to the second knuckle. You decided to drive him crazy. You put his pointer finger all the way in your mouth and looked straight into his eyes. You lightly brushed your teeth against the piece of cloth until you actually got a good piece that you could pull off with your teeth. Quite complicated to do but it drove the man to complete desire. You could just see the heat of his want in his dark eyes and it only made you smirk. Once you were done with that hand you grabbed the other and did the same thing.


As you watched Kakashi's eyes burn with the fire of desire you could just start to feel a slight need building in your bottom half as you could feel yourself becoming wet. You pulled the glove off and Kakashi just acted instantly kissing you with a raging need. Kakashi then decided it was his time to tease you. He undid your bra easier than what you expected and threw that aside also. Once your breasts were free you couldn't help but rub them against his chest needing for them to be touched. Kakashi helped with that need when he dropped his kisses down your throat and then lower down your chest. You took a sharp intake of breath when he moved his lips just over your breast before blowing on it.

Your breast became instantly hard and he decided to take it further and took your nipple in his mouth. You moaned slightly as his tongue moved back and forth teasing you beyond anything. Your killing edge didn't like the teasing, but Kakashi didn't stop and even maxed it up a bit by grabbing your other breast in his hand. All your killing edge wanted to do was rip off his clothes and just fuck him. Instead you got a heaping dose of for play which forced the killing edge to react unsettled like. So you found yourself moaning more than needed and actually twitching with want already.

"You know.." You stopped just as another moan escaped your lips as Kakashi nibbled on your nipple. "I hate the killing edge.."

Kakashi finally let go of your nipple but not until after he sucked causing you to moan again, but he looked back up at you with a smile. "Well I like it."

You pulled on his shoulders so he would kiss you and not tease you. "And why is that?" You asked as Kakashi rose up so his face was even with yours again.

"Because even at the slightest touch.." He touched the outside of your thigh as if proving a point and your body moved to his touch. It was like Passion was put into the chakra which was dispensed all the way through out your body and if he touched even one area the passion forced you to raise up and press against him. "Your body reacts.."

Your eyes narrowed into a glare as you wrapped your arms around his neck preventing him from going down to tease you again. "Don't make me hurt you.."

"Hmm……." He said while trailing his fingers lightly down your chest, breast, and stomach making your body dip against him with a small moan escaping your lips. "I like it rough.."

You smirked at this statement. "You would.." Kakashi just smirked back and the two of you began kissing again this time just like he liked it. Rough. While you were kissing your hands moved down his back and then around to his waist. It was time to get his pants off. You undid everything there was to undo and then decided to use your knees to take them off. You pushed your knees against his sides and moved them down actually taking the pants with them. You got his pants down to his knees then you started using your feet and Kakashi helped you. The entire time you just smiled into the kiss finding this method funny.

Finally as a team both of you had his pants off and Kakashi began kissing your neck again. You had to control yourself not to moan but with each small kiss you found yourself fighting your will power itself. While Kakashi kissed your neck you felt his hands moving smoothly across your hips and down to your panties. In just one blink of an eye you felt a sudden breeze that told you they were off, but how could he do that so fast? He moved his hands down past your sex V making you slightly twitch and then he rubbed his thumbs over the inside of your thighs and upward causing your breath to shake violently.

One of his hands kept moving though and he moved his fingers to your wanting area. He barely touched it and your body was acting crazy and it was only worse when he rubbed one finger over your clit. Your body actually thrust into his finger causing a moment of slight uncomfortableness but he kept moving his finger and the feeling soon left.

"Your still a virgin.." He said softly into your ear. Uh oh he found out your secret well you weren't going to be for much longer. "I can't blame you.." You were confused with what he said but you had to moan as his finger suddenly rubbed against a good spot. He noticed immediately and rubbed that area again. As you felt his finger move against that spot again and again you began to think about what he said. He couldn't blame you. Well of course since your life was pretty much a train wreck and the only thing you knew how to do was be a shinobi not a passionate lover. But it seemed you were born to be one when your killing edge was in high gear. Kakashi stepped it up a notch and slid in another finger making that feeling just double and you moaned louder.

Even though you were getting some amount of release the killing edge seemed to know it wasn't the real deal and you found yourself needing him immediately. Even though you were close to hitting a mind blowing orgasm you moved to make him need you, want you now. Even though your mind was occupied with this feeling you grabbed Kakashi's chin with just one finger since he was kissing your chest area. You pulled him up to meet your face and you gave him a kiss that was everything you were feeling at the moment. You tried teasing his tongue by sucking on it, but he didn't seem phased.

You were getting closer to that orgasm and for some odd reason you felt like if you did hit that orgasm your killing edge was just going to attack the poor pleasurable man. Still you kept going but you moved on to some other way of getting him aroused..well enough for him to stop and just take you. This time you used your body and pressed your hard breasts against him. He grunted a bit, but seemed to notice what you were doing because he went to your ear to whisper in a deep husky, needy voice. "..just wait."

You didn't want to wait. Your killing edge didn't want to wait. It didn't make really any sense because right then your orgasm hit and your body arched to the feeling as you felt the blissful feeling run through your veins and nerves. Your moan came from deep down and a glistening sweet already started to form on your face. Kakashi didn't wait for you to finish, it seemed he needed you now. He took his fingers back and in just another blink of an eye he was deboxed [boxers?] and positioned over you.

You could just feel his manliness hovering over your wanting area. It was like your chakra itself was calling out to him. He was lucky he was rushing it though because you could just feel the killing edge's rage.

"This will only hurt a little.." Kakashi said close to your ear and you could just hear the way he was controlling himself just then. You didn't care for the pain it was what you needed. Kakashi's eyes were closed as he controlled himself little did you know the killing edge itself was making it hard for him. You gave him an odd look just waiting for him to do something. He finally crushed his lips against yours in a heated passionate kiss as he suddenly thrusted himself inside of you. You always heard about how much your first time hurt, but the pain you felt was like nothing else. It was like getting stabbed which you kind of were.

Your eyes immediately opened even though you were kissing Kakashi and the pain just made you want to scream out probably why Kakashi kissed you. As he moved out of you, you felt like he was just ripping out your entire insides with him. You closed your eyes actually fighting back watery eyes, and fought against the pain. Soon as Kakashi kept thrusting in and out of you, you started to feel the pain lesson and a new kind of feeling take over. At first the feeling just started in your lower stomach but it started to grow, deeper and deeper just as Kakashi's manhood was going deeper and deeper inside of you.

The feeling start to burst through out your entire body and you started to move with him meeting him at every thrust. You felt like you needed him deeper in you so you could feel the feeling just explode so you wrapped your legs around his waist and immediately there was a change in the feeling. It was stronger and you could just feel you and your killing edge being satisfied with this intense feeling that was building up inside of you. You just wanted to grab onto the sheets and enjoy the ride but instead you grabbed onto Kakashi and helped him fill you in any way possible. It was like there was just one last place he didn't touch yet, and when he did that feeling would just explode into something unimaginable.

Finally as you dipped yourself against him it seemed he reached that final spot. Your body shook with pure ecstasy as the tidal wave of pleasure cascaded through out your body. Your body arched back and your muscles tightened from the strain of your nerves. You moaned out just as deep as when you reached your orgasm but you weren't at the very climax yet, you had to ride it out for awhile. You were just about to moan out faster, but Kakashi had his own needs and he went faster hitting that one area again and again until finally the climax struck. You screamed out and it seemed Kakashi hit his also.

The feeling was just unbearable in the sense that it seemed almost unreal to feel so much pleasure. You weren't feeling anything around you except for the intense feeling running through your veins. Finally your pleasure high ended and your body slumped against the bed with Kakashi heavily breathing on top of you. He quickly pulled himself out of you before rolling over. You closed your eyes remembering the feeling as your body still twitched with the after effects of it. You were breathing stronger than ever and sweat covered your body.

When finally you calmed down you flipped over and propped yourself on one elbow while your other arm laid on top of Kakashi's still moving chest. You stared at his closed eyes and started to think about what you were feeling inside. At that point in time it was time for you to panic about Kakashi saying he loved you, but you weren't worried. Actually were feeling something else. There was no doubt about it. You were in love with this man but could you toughen up enough and tell him?

"Kakashi.." You watched as his eyes blinked open and he looked deeply into your eyes. "I..love you too.."


Kakashi understood greatly how much it meant for you to say that since he knew exactly how you were about trust. He moved his hand to your face and caressed it and rubbed your cheek affectionately with his thumb. You closed your eyes and pressed your face more into his hand loving the feeling. You opened your eyes when you noticed he was pulling your face closer to his. You met him half way and the two of you shared a small sweet kiss.

You pulled back with your eyes still closed. "Hmm…so what happened to 'I'm going to fuck you senseless'." You were still going to be sarcastic. You opened your eyes to see Kakashi glaring at you, and you just laughed. "I'm just kidding.."

You slumped down and landed on his chest breaking your view from his. "Goodnight Star.." You smiled lightly when you felt Kakashi wrap his arm around you. You cuddled more into him and let out a sigh. "Sweet Dreams Kakashi." Your eyes closed and you fell into a deep sleep with a smile on your face.